The funny thing is.....tomoro..24 begins...well..really now is the start of 24, considering its 2am
And I find out this, now. GUH...I don't fucking know!!!!!!!!!! I just wish like hell that I had a heap of vodka and 10 paks of smokes. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why the fuck does it hurt so bad!?!?! God, this better be the last time I cry...I can't possibly be hurt anymore anywayz...thats the funny thing, he never wanted to hurt me, yet in tryin to prevnt it....he has. GUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH

She was right, all along I have been wanting this n now I have it..I'm scared as hell....Fuck.

He still wears it....Ah fuck....

And then pasta is coming over 2moraz. So not gud timing, this whole month just isn't gud timing lol
The fact that it has been a year since that day kinda makes shit worse, don't think he even realizes/gives a fuck. Doesn't bother me, coz it aint mean a thing anyways, never did. Guh. Perhaps thats a really sad thing...but meh

ARGH.......he's done exactly what he said he would
MOTHERFUCK!!!!!!!! Though I never did doubt him when he said that -sigh- I just...I don't know
He's happy...and thats all that matters

If not in this life, another. Fate. Things happen for a reason....n everything will be ok...

FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKK
I need to get extremli drunk. So badly.
God fucking damn it..........This sucks. This sucks heaps and heaps.